an adventitious kind of adventure.

I guess I forgot to mention that City&Colour was rad-tastic on Tuesday. check out vids on my other blog, or my youtube. uhm uhm...oh yeah! definitely buying a harmonica. in some fit of craziness, I made an account on eBay last night, and placed my first-ever bid on a brand new Hohner BluesBand harmonica. *note to self*: once you place a bid on eBay, you can't go back :/ good thing I only placed a bid 5 cents higher than the asking price bahaha...so I guess we'll see how well THAT goes. & ugh I looked at this guy's music store, which was a huuuge mistake considering he sells all these crazy picks for cheap prices, and I definitely want some AND an electric tuner, which is also cheap.

I think I'm a shopaholic.

I just want to see you, and tell you that I've missed you, even though such a feeling is not something I'm totally sure of, because how can you miss what you don't know, but wrapping my arms around you just sounds like an excellent idea and sometimes I play it over in my head as if it were a movie.

This movie has no credits, and no ending, but I'm sure if it were to have an ending I'd suppose it would have to be a happy one, because I wouldn't have it any other way, and the thought of anything related to you being unhappy seems quite preposterous.

If I could make up a word and have it be real to describe how silly that concept sounds, I would.

But I can't.

I am just a simple girl, a simple girl who misses a simple you.

Ahaha just the way he says "limes" is enough to make me laugh.

I think we butt heads so much because we're so much the same. it's okay for you to disagree, I'm not one to mind at this point. but I've never had an identity that was all my own. I've always been jealous of non-existent figures, examples of a perfection that the living has never seen. I'm sorry I carried my jealously into your world; you were never deserving of it. I miss you, and I hope I won't have to anymore. whether it's because we've been reunited or because you've removed yourself from my life completely, the choice is yours.

aaalright, I twisted my ankle today whilst wearing 1cm high heels. how does this even happen?

ahahaha. I was on this site bestweekever.tv, and I was reading a blog post about the 50 Best Pun Stores. this one made me giggle alot.


you can check out the rest of 'em here.

my mom fiiinally came home last after being away for a week. I've been having nightmare-ish dreams for the past week, I guess because I hate being alone. last night I finally had a good dream, and it was actually pretty awesome. a bunch of people from school and decided to go galavanting around Europe, which was pretty sweet considering I've never been outside the country. alot of people didn't have faces, or at least I did recognize who they were, but there was this one guy who I was hanging out with for the majority of the trip. he was being all cute, holding my hand and such so I woke up all warm & fuzzy feeling. oh yeah, did I mention we had to get into teams and make a cake out of what appeared to be torn magazine pages? rando, and we lost 'cause we showed up late to the competition. just as well, the team that won made a real cake ahaha LOSERS. this is what all the craziness is supposed to mean.

Crush: To dream that you have a crush on somebody, is a literal reflection of your attraction and fascination for that person. To see your crush in your dream, represents your current infatuation with him or her. If you find yourself thinking about him during the day, then it is understandable that his image will appear in your dream during the night.

Traveling: To dream that you are traveling, represents the path toward your life goals. It also parallels your daily routine and the way you progress. If your travels come to an end, then it symbolizes successful completion of your goals.

Europe: To dream of traveling to Europe, signifies a long journey which will give you some financial gain. Alternatively, it indicates original thought or old ways of thinking.

Cake: To see a cake in your dream, indicates that you need to learn to share and allocate your workload instead of trying to do everything yourself.Cakes also symbolize selfishness or the feeling of not getting your fair share. More positively, the dream may represent your accomplishments and achievements. Consider also the metaphor a "piece of cake" or some situation that is easy.

I needed some shtuff from Shoppers today & I want to hand my resume to the Bargain Shop so I took a little half hour stroll to "downtown Keswick" (ha!) I was in line at Shoppers and there was an older man in front of me & he started talking to me about what he was buying, which happened to be those little marshmallow ice cream candy thingies. he started off with the cliche old-man expression "now, when I was young..." & we just got to talking. he was also buying a cute little birthday card for a local doctor who's birthday was today, and proceeded to show me it. something about a smelly sock puppet...ANYway, jeez this story is taking forever.

he needed a quarter to make his purchase even, so I gave him one 'cause I tend to always have alot of useless change & I just thought it'd be a nice gesture. he says "you know, we need more people in the world like you" or something equally as sweet, and hugs me. a stranger I met 5 minutes prior HUGGED me in the middle of Shoppers Drugmart and told me I made his day. the cashier was all "oooh it's like that movie, Pay it Forward!". anywho, so he walks out and says "I really hope you have a good life" now, I've never heard that line before but I thought it was nice nonetheless. the cashier however was all "ooh I've never heard that before, kind of creepy!" like please, the guy is 65 years old and I'm sure grew up in a time where people were a heck of a lot nicer and more compassionate towards other people than they are today. he was just being nice; why do people get so freaked out when people try to be nice to them?

sooo I guess giving a quarter to an old man was my good deed for the day. but his kindness towards me made my day, more than me giving him a quarter made his. just be nice people, a smile is all it takes :)

okay so, I live across from like a pond-filled wildlife fieldy type area, and my bedroom windows face it. I just looked over for a second and a man and woman looked like they just came from the paths leading to the ponds. the man was walking pretty slowly, then I noticed his belt/zipper were both undone and he was in the process of doing them up :/ uhm...yiiikes.

seriously, what is the world coming to?

pshh, I get bored sooo easily with things. I don't know how many times I've changed the layout for this blog, but this time I decided to get a template online from good ol' Blogger Templates. meh, I dunno if I really like it; there's not much about it that I can make original, and I can't really "Jazz" it up ahaha. and I quote Aqua Teen Hunger Force in saying, "did you get the double entendre"? ANYwho, I don't really have much to say...

ohoh but I did hear a song on an episode of Degrassi I watched the other day, that I l-l-love & I didn't feel like creating a separate post on my music blog just for it sooo here it is:

Montreal Love Song - We Are the Take

I can't breathe in the space that's filled with your sound
Can't call a spade a spade in this town
Dug a hole now I can't get out
I can't figure it out

Keep your head up high keep mine deep in the ground
Hide away the love that I've found, built a wall now I can't get round
I can't figure it out

Always on my mind
I can feel you now
Don't think I can find you this time

You can tell on me I can tell on you too

Act as though you have forgotten all the trouble you have gotten
Into my dear, don't believe it's you

Always on my mind
I can feel you now
Don't think I can find you this time

so last night I got out of my house, which was super nice considering I've been doing nothing but cleaning & hopelessly waiting for a job to fall in my lap (ha!). my friend Ryan invited me out to Orleans, which is a cute little jazz/blues bar in Newmarket. they have an open jam session every Tuesday night, and it was the last night the host was leading it, because she's going on tour! which is pretty freakin' wicked if you ask me. I remember I did Georgina Idol (my hometown's attempted version of American Idol) in grade 9 and I competed against her and she was amazing, so it's really good to see her accomplishing her dreams like that. she even has a CD coming out in June, which is double wicked.

anywho so the night was overall pretty good, alot of reeeally good musicians played. it made me want to get up on stage with them, so I might even consider doing it one night, who knows. I'm just super shy which tends to be my main problem in life that stems all my other little problems that arise. last night I only knew Ryan, and of course he pretty much knew everyone 'cause he used to play there every Tuesday & I sat at a table the whooole night. it would have been nice f I could have socialized a bit, but I'm honestly so lost when I'm by myself in a sea of people I don't know. if I'm with a group of friendss, no problemo 'cause I can let my personality shine through but nooo not when I'm alone.

good lord someone help me! you know, being 20 and all, one would think I'd be sort of over my awkward stage...

anywho, good night, now I'm seriously considering starting a band and yeeeah!

oh & I'm just gunna do a little plug for Bernadette (the girl I was talking about) here's her website & myspace.

I just want to be okay. I'm lonely, what else is new. and I hate being home alone, which unfortunately is what I have to deal with until my mom comes home next week. but despite the loneliness, I'm learning some pretty good life lessons, and I'm trying to start fresh. I've been doing pretty well so far.

you know, you say you feel...well you feel a certain way. and I'm kind of happy that life is bringing you down to earth. you're just like me.

and you, well. I miss you, and that's all I can really say.

gosh darn. so it looks like pretty much nowhere is hiring right now, at least when it comes to retail (which is experience I'm lacking in & should have considering I'm a FASHION student *rolls eyes*). but I got my income tax money so I'm no longer broke! :D & I finally started a music blog, even though I'm clueless when it comes to actually putting music on it. I figured out how to add links though! I'm really moving along here...

& since I got such a good deal shopping yesterday, I thought it might be fun to do a blog on fashion&beauty deals. who doesn't love a good deal? sale happens to be my favourite word. so here are the links to my new found loves blogs:

Fashion&Beauty and Music *plugplugplug* they're just babies right now, but check 'em out if you dare MUAHAHAHA -ahem- no seriously, check 'em out :)

oh dear, the past two posts have been quite uhm shall we say, hostile? -sigh- I guess I'm just at a point in my life where I know what I deserve and I just can't deal with "frenemies" anymore. but I like to say, I don't burn bridges when I get burned. it just creates some good inspiration for new writing :) anywho, I woke up pretty happy today. it's gorgeous out! ugh, I've been holed up at home for the past couple days just unpacking and organzing my life. I can't believe how much crap I own. buuut coffee with Ryan this week, so that should be a good time.

yikes. I still have to go around everywhere and hand out resumes today. wish me luck kids!

god do I ever need to get out of this town. whenever you learn how to be a real friend, call me. you'll be too late.

rant city. not that I care, or have ever cared what you do or say because you're clearly still stuck in the tenth grade, but can you get off your bitch mobile for maybe one second and show a little compassion for people around you? wait what am I saying, you're one of those girls who won't ever change. well good luck in life sweetie, you're gunna need it in the real world.

aaand on a lighter note, only 3 hours 'til I'm home! :D

gahh moving day is upon me, and I'm caught in between being stoked/not being stoked. I just have to say I'm gunna miss everyone I've met over this past year, and I hope you all go on to have an amazing summer & do awesome things with your lives. I'm already excited for next year! peace out, kids of 08/09 xox.